Last Day

ha! reaching the final days of CNY holidays.. and meaning? work!! haha.. boring!

today went to selin's house to bai nian.. at around 0945 hrs then i left at 1120 to ruth's house to have lunch with her family.. and her family is very kind to us; Jasper, Tristian, Rina, Cindy and Me!. Thanks Ruth for the lunch. Apologises for leaving so early.

went to find my relatives, shortly after that watch Fearless. The last stunt movie for Jet Li.. The moves were very breath-taking, and i like it.

But there were something in the movie which i habe negative thoughts about Westerners. as u know from histories, The Western countries had a lot of colonies in Asia, etc..

and i thought it was very barbaric. Since young, my mother told me that the westerners acted very like an uncivilised person, and being young, didn't know anything, disagree with my parents..

but after i came to know a lot of thing, i begin to agree with my parents. Look at the way they wanna take control of a lot of thing. Like the US, for example. A lot of foreign policies, etc. Invading nations and countries, etc.. *sound like my mother, eh) :(

of course.. i'm NOT being a racist or watever u can think of.

Back to Fearless, I admired his way of protecting the diginity of the Chinese ppl, and i saluted him for his relentless effort. But the ending of Huo Yuan Jia in the movie isn't the truth. According to my simple and short research about him, he died of being fatigue and malnutrition because he was busy with setting up the Federation Schools, spread his teachings among his students and trying to get link on outside China to start his schools. He slept little and eat little, and this is how Zhuge Liang died too, and just because of this he died at the young age of 42.

In short, i like this movie.

sianz.. working tomolo.. and i'm off to sleep early.. good nite everybody, sweet dreams and sleep tight

our poor earth is breaking down.. hopefully everyone do their bit to save the environment.

1. Off the switch if u are not using any electrical appliances
2. Do not unneccessary use any electrical appliances just coz u think u have the money to pay for the utilities fees

btw, anyone here study bio (to be precise study regarding brain) if anyone of you know or u are one, can u kindly contact me?

Pissed

the day started well.. went to Rick's house.. erm.. didn't know him at all.. and i thought i knew him and that's why i decided to go when raq asked me.

then to raymond's god mom house and chit-chatted over there.. and we moved on to kaixiang's house.. then to Lek meng's house...

all were fun.. over there


till.. i reached home.. haiz.. another day of quarrel on my mother and father.. like i said in my previous entry, i always dread to go home upon the idea of it, always got fan..why? because they quarreled everyday.

and we lived under her Dictatorship for many many years as well as her Depression. We followed what she told us to do, esp my father. He got really rugged, haggard, shagged from her illness. His wrinkles revealed a lot more than those ppl who weren't under constant stress at his age. I think my father is a really good patient guy, throughout her whole illness, he only got pissed off and started an arquement with my mom only for ONE time. whereas, my mother conflicted with him every little thing everyday.

yes everyone has their own shortcomings and for my father, like me, doesn't know how to express his idea into words/actions/emotion. and also find it hard to understand/know what gals actually wants.

a simple situation
eg: when gal say no to this, but in their heart they want it very much. For me and my dad, i would simply treat as "she dun want".

Today or rather just now, she told my dad that she wanted to go to some temple to pray. and after that, for some reason, she dun want. my dad of course will think the latter. and coz of this, my mother got angry.. -_-" for what?! Reason: she claimed that my dad do not understand her realy thoughts..

she said that my father is not earning a lot for the whole family.. well i think is more to earn for her. she like, spent more than $500+ (& sometimes up till $800) on 4D/Toto and she earned like only $500 a month. and said we all keep spending money. CCB! mathematically, i believe u all know, she will finish her savings in no time!
Sometimes, i do think, is there such thing call LASTING love in this world? my mother knows what calibre my father is made of, and she also plays the part to agree to marry to my father and now, at this stage of their marriage, she blamed him that he is unable to fulfil things, like cars, big house. omg. If u made that decision, u can't blame anyone else. holy shit!

and come on lor.. if u want to go, say go lahz. cb.. everynow and then, wanna make us guess... Female are like f*** lor. They say no at the surface, then in their heart, they want it very much. and when they got into arguments for not understanding to their gal with their guy, they say that guys are not understanding, and said: Guys dun understand gals.. KNN u tell me, u think that's fair for guys or not if we HAPPEN to make wrong GUESS ?

anyway, back to my mother thingy. Can anyone advises me what should i do? or any physiatrist can help? i'm tired of this shit. i'm fed up with the whole thing.

i really desperate now.. i am feeling sick of this place call unHome...

i think u all will think that i am just letting my steam of. NO one knows what i am feeling now, living with a person that u are close with, suffering from depression.

jus because they are well-known...

on soccer news for this entry.. regarding man utd.. on 2 players who were banned..

in which i think is unfair by the respective authories who decided on the bans.

Cristiano Ronaldo and Gary Neville were banned for their actions on the pitch..

i couldn't quite understand why they were banned whereas other players did and not even a single thing was mentioned about their action. it was pretty strange..

here's some related news from www.soccernet.com and www.manutd.com

1. http://soccernet.espn.go.com/news/story?id=356594&cc=4716
2. http://www.manutd.com/news/fullstory.sps?iNewsid=298874&itype=466&icategoryid=120

and it also recalled about the saga surrounding Rio Ferdinand. he was banned like 7 or 9 months (couldn't quite remember) for JUST missing out on a urine drug test. whereas other players who were caught finding banned substances in their urine, were banned for like a couple of months, AT MOST!

SAF (Sir Alex Ferguson) commented that was the result of the ban just because they are man utd player. and i thought he was quite right to say that.

and that actually happens to me when i was in sec sch.. that's very sad to say..

whatever it is, u judge the whole thing and if u look at the fair way, i think SAF was right in his comment..

unjustifiable, unfair and unstable MOTHER!!!

oh fuck.. i wanna scold AND FUCK god for giving such a mother to me! watever u all wanna say, i'm unfilial.. I DUN GIVE A DAMN..

today is eve of CNY and i thought she will be busy.. but i wanted to swim on today.. SO, i asked her yesterday whether she needs help for today, when will she be worshipping our ancestors. she said.. evening then worship, if u wanna go out during the day, just go..

-ok-

i went swimming, then to lot one to see my sun nu and nu er.. and had my foot just stepped into the house...!@#$%^&*() was heard from here...

she accused and said to me : WHERE WERE YOU WHEN WE ALL NEED HELP TO CLEAN? ccb i was so fuck up with this comment! and i talked back: didn't i ask you yesteryday u need help or not and didn't u say just go out?! and she keep quiet!

Then she kept nagging all the way. ARGH! spring cleaning kitchen and toilet.. and i wanted to tell her, didn't she just do it just LAST WEEK?! why do again in less than 1 month..

just before we wanted to have our lunch (she was having her lunch by herself), she kept nagging and nagging and said we didn't do this and that.. ok so we do those thing she instructed (coz if we didn't do as what she ORDERED immediately, we would simply 'die' very very terribly, [in which i choose to die]).. but shortly later, she said: come eat first later than do... then after that.. no one replied to her because we were doing her stuff, then she raised her voice up and said if u all not coming to eat immeidately, i'm going to flare up.

FUCK. coz u know why? Coz she can take knife and threaten to kill herself, etc. do u think we want that on eve of CNY?

so we LPPL lor, lunch with her and then she commented "dun make me so man zhang (fustrated), can or not? ccb.. i talked back and said : look who is man zhang now. Strangely she keep quiet.. __

then never mind... after that.. ironing of clothes. and she ordered me to iron my stuff.. and i was like fucking hell.. now only what day.. so fast iron my SPF uniform for fuck. i've got 2 more spare, why stress urself to iron all these? no wonder she got depression. ok lor.. then i quickly iron shirts and pants and go back..

i think i've changed a lot since sec sch in terms of my temper. and i realised in these few months that i flare up easily. i think, thanks to my mother, caused me to this state. Every comments were meant for me which is unjustifiable, unfair. She said / scolded what she thinks she is right.

eg: she likes to nag at me over something which she ASSUMES i dun know how to do. then when i did it right, she surprisingly said : "eh, u know how to do ah?" thanks ah

this caused me to remember what my mom's ex-babysitter's mom said:
"your mother very strange, she always say she is a democratic person, but in the end, she is the one who controls the decision." and yes this is right. i supported what she said.

i just wanna find one or two person whom i wanna confined. like penelope is one of them. But i think i should give them a piece of mind. coz no one likes to hear such thing from their friend. but this kind of thing, unstable mind, unjustifiable comments and unfair scoldings, i really can't take it if i keep to my heart and therefore i decided to pour it out here. well.. scold me unfilial if anyone wants. i'm really tired of her stuff and hopefully anyone out there can take me away from her. i'm sick of her. As she is always at home everyday, i dread upon the idea of returning home from outing/work/camp, etc..

if u all say, u can go out mah.. guess what, no problem for going out, but my father (under the pressure of the Dictator Mother), will call me and asked me where am i, what time am i going to back? oh.. bullshit.. look i'm 22, a guy, with nothing to lose by going out. and what the fuck are they concerning me about? they called me quite a number of times, asking the same qns, and wanted me to go home early every time i went out. this kind of thing relates to how much they distrust you when u were outside. they said "u dun anyhow go find ayam(chicken in malay, aka prostitute) argh!! my dick is for my wife only hor. i should say is my mother rather than my father who is overly-unncessary concerning.

so anyone who read this, and if u all know u got depression, pls hor.. go and treat urself, and i appealed to u all do not drag this. as it would not just only hurt urself, it also hurt/tramatize ur other partner, ur children, etc.. (like what i am feeling now)

i wanted to call Sun Tian over for reunion dinner (coz his family is over at china) and luckily i didn't.

i really dun know what to say about my mother.

Morning! (aiya.. haha.. i know is like talking to myself here and then)

anyway.. going for a swim later with raq as part of our tanning project and exercise. and we will not be doing anything much for today.. coz is eve of CNY.. so our routine changed a bit..

well.. will i see the ex-pjc gal later on? Pls tune in here at SG time 1 pm to find out :p

haha =)

read it if u are => 18 years old

this good blogger post.. everyone should view it

http://rockson.blogspot.com/2006/01/orh-seem-ifuck.html

FREED!

despite the CNY knocking on everyone's door, the work today is like pretty normal-paced.. there isn't any sign of ppl celebrating ..

haha.. i think working in Civil Service is not that bad.. they got a lot of free or subsided courses for u to attend.. i also want to go a lot of courses.. but haha.. i'm not in the position to go for one now. gotta wait ah..

haha yeah.. finally got myself free from work.. till next week wed! haha.. gotta enjoy a lot in this period...

anyway, agreed to meet up with my sun nu.. but in the end.. nothing heard from her. called/smsed no reply.. i think i can re-sell away the present.. ah..

ehh.. went to shop .. bought one jeans, but gotta change later.. and a shirt.. and i think that's all .. after CNY period.. maybe buying a pair of shoe.. and i think that's for enough..

sleepy ah..going to sleep
and

everyone out there a happy Chinese New Year.. and collect lotsa of angbao money..
cheers =)

1 more working day!!

haha.. i'm looking forward to CNY.. muahaha..

today's work is still ok.. nothing special to report.. haha.. except that we go to Maxwell hawker centre to have our lunch..

and we ate this stall : Tian Tian Hainanese Chicken Rice


and the chicken!

hmm.. the chicken tasted really nice.. and they actually got a stall next to them to prepare the chicken! and they half-closed the barrier gate while doing it.. hmm.. must have some secret recipe!.. and that's explained the long queue...

haha.. hopefully i can meet my sun nu tomolo to pass her birthday present which was due long long time ago.

haha.. my nu er and sun nu.. like asking for ang bao like for years.. haha... :p

- Tomorrow is gonna be a good day -

and i hope that i can see a lot of familier faces ;)

Shagged!

Shagged!
These few days doing a lot of work in the office.. i think i'm stressed.. yesterday and today isn't feeling too well..

i guess it's due to the pressure in me that i wanna learn many things as possible. We have a lot of things to do on these 2 days. Butluckily, my over-study was a good guy.. and didn't pressure and scold me despite i'm still learning the trade.. Thanks :)

CNY coming le ya.. haha.. and i think i need to buy 1 more shirt and jeans. Maybe i will buy this fri or sat morning.. some kinda last min thing...

and this year!! hopefully, there's an increase of ang bao money compare to last year! haha.. i'm really dried up for my expenditure (which is impt and neccessary) that i planned for this year. and hope promotion comes quickly knocking on my door! as the differences of allowance is very big..

yeah.. tired these 2 days.. feel dizzy spell.. hopefully can recover by end of tomorrow.

have fun to my friends out there.. festive follows by festive.. what a month of Dec and Jan.. Enjoy urself.. i'm preparing to go Zzzzzzzz....

my beautiful NS life

my father told me: "Eh, are u sure you are serving NS?"

Me: "haha.. i think so"

well.. they wanna send me to SA.. (Special Agent) :p .. and that's how it gonna be.. though i'm quite disappointed with everything..

what a day for me...

woke up at usual timing.. etc.. morning rountine..
eat, on lappy read blogs, eNews, bath, go out..

then squeeze with ppl on MRT... and let ppl touched me .. sigh..

dick, butt.. and again.. by guys! sway sia.. :< now u all know why i dun have a gf?! haha


reached office.. work.. my overstudy wasn't here. and i'm all by myself.. answering qns directed to me by other ppl, and i dun know how to ans them.. but SPF must be getting a lot of good luck from me! as i'm a hardworking ppl

haha.. :p worked half day and then left for Home.. hahaha.. be an entertainer - i went to the front with some of my colleagues and sing! Church song (sia lahz.. i know nuts.. but i just follow the rhythm.. not that bad rite).. and guai huai fang shi.. and da ti hui chun.. haha..

and after that.. we did nothing .. other than area cleaning and singing.. and i dozed off while waiting for the time to pass.. and then went back to PCC and go home..

hahaha.. everytime i heard of this.. i just laugh... guess what.. there were like 8 ppl told me that i like Lin Jun Jie aka J.J.

btw.. this is JJ

holy shit, i can't believe my ears.. in what way i look like him man..

my mom ex-colleagues
my auntie
my cousin
my mom's friends (2)
a salesgal
my friends

i'm not saying that they have bad taste, referring to JJ is ugly nor i'm saying that i am good-looking like him..

but the same comment that came from them was : i look like him when i smile
ehh.. out of curiousity, no matter how i compare, i didn't see any similarities, other than the features we all have in human!

haha.. ok..

- enough -

Tomorrow, i'll be working half-day.. working in the morning then after that.. going to old folks home.. *yawn*

I'm going up to sing CNY songs for the old folks.. omg.. well.. i think the sat night KTV was a good practicing session! *hehe
but nevertheless, i would rather do all the cleaning up, chatting..
haha.. and imagine i sing "新年快乐, 恭喜发财, etc.." =)

haha.. all right then.. nothing much for tonite.. i think i will be malu-ed tomolo...
wish me the luck..

a link for u all to play - http://www.extremefunnypictures.com/funnypic1197.htm

I think M1 really need to do up self-reflection for their Customer Service and Billing Department.

I renewed my hp line with M1 somewhere in Sept. and the next bill that came reflected wrongly on the fees that i need to pay. I called them and asked why is this so, and the operator couldn't ans me, so she told me that the extra will be deducted on next month bill.

Fair Enough.

So the "Next Month" bill came, saw the bill, nothing deducted. I was a bit pissed off by the promises made by the Operator. There wasn't anything done. I didn't call them afterwards coz the extra is actually like $1++, which is a damn small sum of money.[ppl who wanna told me off, stop it. Coz i'm not talking abt money, talking abt principles & promises].

Well, I had with M1 for a lot of years, from the era of Pager to HP.. (and i dun think so i will continue with them for 3G hp in the future). Bills were charged extra, etc.. I believe if u gathered all M1 users and u asked them "whether did M1 charge you extra & and when u feedback to them, and still nothing's done", there will be at least 3 to 4 person in (maybe) 6, 7 person gonna ans u. "YES"

Nahz! forget it...

so ppl with M1, pls look carefully ur bills.

well well well.. a pretty interesting day for me.. went jogging then swimming with raq in CCK stadium..

haha.. well the highlight isn't about getting to go out with a gal (FYI, i hardly went out with gal alone, regardless she is my friend, nu er, etc..) ... so shall skip all the running and swimming part..

but the highlight IS... i gotta see that ex-pjc gal AGAIN that i mentioned in some previous entries. oh.. i melted in the pool. it was another unexpected meeting-of-her incident. oh my.. i just couldn't describe the feeling. it was very fan-tastic... and the feeling of excitment is still in me as i was blogging =) and i ought to feel ashamed of myself.. coz she could really swim and i was like.. hmm.. u know lahz.. could swim but.. (yup)..

and if u guys are expecting me to talk about figures of her.. hmm.. sorry then. coz i respect her as a whole (though i'm LUSTY but i do know something about respecting gal).. and i just look blankly at her face, coz i dun see her everyday! every moment is so precious to me.!

enough of this! rushed home immediately, changed and went to BPP to meet my friends which we will be going to MS. While waiting for my buddy, shanhe, i upgraded my SIM card. sad case, coz my contacts and SMS are getting more... and mine SIM card was damn old, like 7 years old. so changed at a cost of $18.90.. ehh.. is like so un-worthwhile, coz they didn't do any backup for me. forget it and luckily for me, i know how-to.

went to MS to see the celebration of 933 16th birthday, then had dinner.. and proceed to Somerset Mrt to attend our briefing for our little mission. sad right?

Coz it was raining very heavily and the place we wanted to go is quite far. so here u go

The following pics explains our mission: click for bigger pic

legend on it.. and that's important for our mission on-goings:

We were to go to Crown Prince Hotel (forgot to mark) :p

X is our drop-off point.

The Blue Line is our line of movement. so take note..

We moved from from Somerset Mrt exit 'B'.

The Yellow spots were our Rally Points (RP) aka Safe Area.. coz it's sheltered from the HEAVY rain.

We waited for the Traffic to clear while we were waiting at the Specialists' Shp Ctr, while waiting to cross to Orchard Emerald (our RP 2). We walked to Midpoint Orchard and we need to cross to The Heeren (our RP 3) but.. in between it wasn't sheltered. and we need to wait for the pedestrian light to go green on us, and it was a long run from RP 2 to RP 3.

The red color dot was where i suffered injury. My right ankle was shot by the puddle of water, and it submerged totally in the water. thanks ah. causing my shoe, sock and jeans to wet. We continued to walk in The Heeren and proceed to our Base and the journey was pretty phew.. fun though. =) and we reached our Base with full-strength and we go Partyworld to sing till 12 am! haha.. btw, dun say that i am la me..



nothing much to talk about after that,, wait for NR3 *sorry eh.. NSF no money*.. and then go home.. bathed.. and here am i blogging.

ALL i can say that today, is a full of fun and still fun day! coz i saw her again.. oh.. it was really like some fairy tales... and i PROMISE u all, the next time i saw her again, i will seize the OPPOURTUNITY to talk to her, and maybe knwo her?!.. yeah. that's when there's a chance for me to talk to her.. haha =) wish me all the best luck!.. FLOOD ME!

today's a damn stressful day.. learnt a lot from my over-study.. and he will be on leave on mon.. ha.. leave me to work.. well.. gotta learn fast.. i dun have a lot of time left..

oh my oh my.. talking about monday.., i will be going to old folks' home during working hours with my colleagues. haha.. hmm.. quite lame sia.. it was like my CIP back in my sec sch hours.. and i bet u will be laughing ur head off if i gonna tell u that i will be singing!! *aww*.. i'm dread in this.. hahaa.. singing CNY songs! hahaha.. and the ever-shy me, will definately blush, as red as a monkey's ass even before i got onto the stage! Eeek!

rented this korean movie and i thought it was a touching movie.. really damn touching.. it's summarize.. (and it's really very short)

it was starred in a Flashback pattern. where Seok is already like 70+.
it was a story setted in Korean in around 1950, where South and North Korea were engaged in a war. These brothers were strongly bonded. and when the war broke out, one of them got drafted into the war. The elder bro, jin tae, wanna protect his younger bro, jin seok from the war and fought well to earn a medal, hoping that he could be sent home safety..
and to summarize the whole thing...

they got seperated during the war.. and then reunited.. got seperated.. and reunited again.
At the concentration camp, jin seok was locked in it. and the building got fired. Jin tae knew that his bro was inside.. wanted to save him, but he couldn't. when the fire was put off, he saw his bro pen and a body next to him and he thought he had died where actually jin seok didn't.
Tae then turned a traitor (coz the loss of his bro) and switched to North Korean's side. this is when Seok knows about his whereabouts of his bro and set to look for him. they got reunited again, and Tae took a long time to realise that his bro didn't die as he believe that his bro was dead.

Tae promised that he will go back after the war and urged his bro (a South Korean soldier) to escape away, with the North Korean overwhelming the South. (Tae switched side to North before this battle, so he was safe from them therefore urged his bro to escape). but he didn't.,. he took a rifle gun and shot towards the North (he now knows that his bro is alive, and that's why he attacked the North) but was gunned down by the lot of North soldiers. and he died..

some years later, his remained was found and his bro (now 70+) knelt down beside him and cried. i forgot what he said.. but it was very touching..

if u all haven't watch this movie.. watch it.. its 5/5 rating! no doubt!

haha.. sorry for the poor grammer and vocab.. trying to improve it...

i'd blogged

had a weird feeling. tonite.

maybe stressed.. maybe sad.. maybe feel useless.. maybe feeling down

haha.. maybe i'm just a fuck-up

that's all for today..

i'm lousy... i shouldn't be in this world in the 1st place...

...sigh...

got my hush puppies shoes FOC.. from SPF.. cool yea? yeah.. really comfortable pair of shoe.
today working day is like any other normal day.. was pleasantly surprised that i gotta my ex sch mates in work place today!

my pri sch clasmate: hmm.. ok.. we knew each other vocation, so nothing of a BIG surprise. chatted a bit and a few and he went off to do his work. he came to my dept to pass over documents to my colleagues.

my sec sch mate: ha .. this is then really surprising! eh, i forgot his name, all i remember he was with the band and he was held in high-esteem. i thought he is in the operational side. but never realise that he is working in the same building as me. yeah.. so close yet so far.he came up to sort out documents with us. and he saw me.. and we xchanged some words.. he told my colleagues, and one of them, my senior, who happen to be his sqdmate:

Him:
you know him mah? he was some high-ranking NPCC officer back in my sec sch. everyone saluted to him, u know?
Senior:
wow, u so big? ppl saluted to you?
Me:
*Blushing* (and that's all i can do)

now.. is quite a stress.. ppl know that i was a CI, something that i dun wish to let ppl know. When i was in BPT, my ex-junior told my sqdmate that i was CI.. and omg! but is all right... what said has said..

haha.. well.. that's the problem with well-known ppl.. (f*** you bob! arrogant!) =p haha

ha.. freak.. wanted to blog.. but helping my mother to do some errands.. and after finishing it, i forgot what i wanna write..

hmm.. never mind.. just say one by one.. maybe it will come out eventually...

let's talk about depression over here....

i dun know how depression gonna start.. but i suspect and anaylsed that it gotta do with your character/personality..
ppl with a strong sense of urgency, impatient, a sense of wanting to win others, perfectionism (or rather a perfectionist) contribute to Depression. and of course.. to aid in their agony, maybe the stress level may speed up depression.
Have the tedency to commit suicide,
got flared up easily with the things that doesn't see eye to eye for you.
stress up & start to get angry over small thing in which it can be solved @ some later time or some simple solution


Depression, according to doc, can be cured. If anyone of you find urself (or anyone close to you) with the above characters, pls seek medical help ASAP. this will aid in ur recovery faster. It can be dragged on to not only the victim's life, but also the ppl around you. ur partner, parents, children.. etc..

and their life will be affected by ur actions. General ppl suffering from depression will always want to commit suicide, and the constant threat of this definately add up to the stress of ppl ard u. and in the long run, these ppl will be under a lot of mental stress, and who knows.. might also develop depression. i'm not a doctor.. i'm just a person who going through all these, in which i think is unfair. So, reader if u think u are suffering from one, pls seek medical attention. This isn't shameless thing to do. if u dun wish to let the ppl ard u to suffer unneccessary, unjust, then seek medical attention.

- Full Stop -

today was a peaceful day. my supervisor interviewed me asking me whether i am happy with my finance. i told my colleagues that i wanna have more savings, and he reflected to our supervisor. nice and caring colleague i have. My supervisor checked the stuff for me whether i'm eligible for FA. and well.. sorry nope! haha.. we got 3 TVs. though we got 2 for free. hi-fi system, 3 hps, no loan from bank to finance anything, laptop, computer, 4-room flat, and lastly CREDIT CARD.. haha.. think the grant allowed is as good as 0%. dun be mistaken, my intention wasn't to get the money to buy anything, but to save up for my studies.

nevertheless, i think the govt should grant $50 for administrative allowance. it has its own fatique and stress. =) hopefully Mr Lee Hsien Loong is reading it.

had a quiet day in the office. nothing much to do. trying to learn the trade ASAP.

Your Birthdate: November 29

You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet. Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings. You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments. You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action. Your strength: Your vivid imagination Your weakness: Fear of failure Your power color: Coral Your power symbol: Oval Your power month: November (ehh isn't it lame)

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Before i start, i would like to wish my 2nd daug all the best for her orientation tomolo.. =)

i mentioned abt haircut yesterday but somehow i forgot to mention that the barber took advantage of me! hmm.. it was pretty strange coz i dun look like a female, and plus.. i dun have a nice face (regardless whether i am a female or male). well.. it happen after touching-up my hair, as he was removing the "cloth" (i dun know what to call, or name), it came off from my shoulder then to the thighs, and at this point of time, he used his hand to brush against my left thighs.. (thanks ah.. i wear track short).. i was so disgusted.. and when he returned the change for the haircut, he also touched my fingers on my left hand.. argh!

recently, i always have such luck, always tio such thing - guys touched me.. Why isn't it opp - girls touching me? :p haha..

let's see.. tomolo will be the start of the working week. i dread it coz of the too-heavy responsibility on me.. well.. nevertheless, i should learn how to take it up...

got a new pimple registered on my face, it is now at right eyelids.. it's quite big.. hmm.. :( everytime i tio ah.. always come such a big one man.. then the scar will leave there.. ppl call this acne.. making my face so untidy. haiya.. sianz man, i already very ugly.. then come acne, that's going to make it worst.. this big pimple is like blocking my view when i want to look up, felt like there's a hump over there.. so awkward..

- Once a ugly guy, Always a ugly guy -

no wonder i dun have a gf

haha.. during my BPT time, we always sleep early.. (have to lah.. if not training feel very tired, shag)
then hor, my face actually got better, during that 4 months, i dun have a single pimple and was so happy about it.. (eh.. can't blame me, i always got pimples every now and then) .. so now, i must get this habit back, must sleep early also.. so maybe, at the lastest, i target ard 12 am.. i must be in bed..

lastly, to all working/studying readers of mine, happy Monday Blues.. stay bluey tomolo.. ;-)

all right.. should put something cheerful now..

went to this site to have ur pic created =)

haha.. this is just so cute.. like me! really did nothing today.. went for haircut.. and i cut it really short.. yeah... wanna a short hair also.. is easier for me to make my hair as it is very soft.. the longer it is.. the harder for me to control the style..

did a lot of character test.. and i did this Purity Test .. haha..
Result?

90% sex, 95% substance, 75% moral [87% total]

Definition: Well done! The higher your scores, the more "pure" you are. The lower, the more you've experienced.

Advice:

• Don't date anyone if your moral purities differ by more than 30%.
• Don't run a business with anyone if your substance purities differ by more than 40%. Do be friends with someone who has less than 1/2 your sex purity.
• You'll enjoy their colorful company.

i dun quite catch what it meant and i am not interested in it.. i'm more interested in the result.. hehe.. after all.. i'm quite "pure"..
the URL of the test is here:
http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=8797531974480148663

weather is nice for yesterday and today.. no rain.. so far.. that's good.. but pls dun be so dry like last year, so much so that the grass actually turned yellow from green.

my flu of course getting better.. and the weather played a part. My block nose is gone since yesterday as there weren't any rain.. but flu is still there.. wish me to recover fast.. :>

that's all .. have a nice weekend.. have fun ya..

haha.. this is what u got for "piracy".. haha.. i've got this 'poem' from HB

no intention to take it for my own..

and i'm sure that all of my friends love this sex poem.. haha.. enjoy reading:

人之初 In the beginning
性本善 Sex is good
性相近 Basically, sex are all the same
习相远 But it depends on how the way you do it
苟不教 If you do not practise all the time
性乃迁 Sex will leave you
教之道 The way of mastering it
贵以专 Is very important to make love with only one person
昔孟母 Once a great mum, Mrs Meng
择邻处 Chose her neighbour to avoid bad sex influence
子不学 If you don learn hard
断机揉 Your dick becomes useless
窦燕山 Dou the famous
有义方 Owned an effective medicine
教五子 All his five sons took it
名俱扬 And their sexual ability were well-known
养不教 If your children don't know how to do it
父之过 It is your fault
教不严 If you are not strict when teaching
师之惰 Their teacher must be too lazy to teach them the details
子不学 If you refuse to learn
非所宜 It is a real mistake, because
幼不学 Your children will refuse to learn too
老何为 You will lose your ability when you're old

(edited entry)

back here.. oh man.. i'm on the second day of my posting.. and is quite tiring.. coz my senior is currently holding on to very important job and technically, all the PNS ppl will not function without him.. and how stress i am .. WHY? because i will be taking his stuff over for the next 1 yr 8 mths..

sigh.. haha.. well.. so far so good.. i hope there will not be any cock-up from my side as it will seriously affect other dept, shall not elaborate so much.. coz there is really a lot of ppl and dept to mention..

caught up with General Flu and he is giving me kinda hell.. weather is cold, office is cold.. giving him all the best possible chance to expand his territory.. hope he can goes off soon..

nothing much to talk about today.. just wanna say that i still miss that ex-pjc gal.. haha.. and hopefully SK can read that i was writing about her @ this URL : http://wittyweida.blogspot.com/2006/01/nothing-to-write-yesterday.html

Currently listening to : Ricky Martin - Loaded

extract this from sky's blog and i thought it was really very true:

rememeber me when a problem appears,
forget me when you have none

hope sky dun mind hehe~

my NS life is screwed up.. my family is screwed up.. ppl i treat them 'close' is f*** up..
well.. what to do.. my life is such a fuck up

MH said that i'm quite disturbed recently.. i think is somewhat true ba..

b4 i start anything, i would sincerely like to thanks to ppl who read my blog.. being updated of what i am going to do.

let's talk about my NS... i hoped to go to Army to serve my NS.. reason? coz i wanted to come in contact with rifle, undergo jungle training, etc.. those stuff Recruits went through for their BMT.. yes.. it is very tiring, i do understand. but the love can be replaced all those toughness of the trainings. but it was never meant to be.... coz i was posted to SPF for my NS...

Come SPF... there are several postings available for NS guy to go. there are 2 postings i like to go very much.. MRT and NPC.. Those 2 were in my list when we were told to choose our posting... like i posted in my last entry.. i've got everything they want to enter the posting (NPC).. but it was never meant to be.. alas i'm posted to SA in PA. sigh

i wanted to learn things in NS.. at least the operational side.. why? do u think we can touch those technical stuff like revolver, rifle, etc.. so easily? and i thought those were the best chance to learn and came in contact with them. Some of my friends asked me why dun i sign on.. well.. coz i dun want to get tied down.. all i want is to learn 1 or 2 things and go off.. that's why.. now.. no more.. in conclusion.. my NS life is really screwed up for the next 1 1/2 years.. so.. friends of mine.. dun mention about my NS life.. coz i dun wish to be reminded of what i do. but of course.. a kind-hearted person like me.. wouldn't give u a nasty face if u did mention.. =)

think this entry is pretty long.. i think i better talk about my family stuff next time.. and then follow up by the .. <-- this gonna be the highlight..

all right.. that's all.. take good care everyone.. weather is cold.. dun get caught with flu..

went to orchard today to watch King Kong.. and i must say it's a good movie... an action-packed and LOVE movie..

i dun know will there be any people agree with me that the LOVE element is in this movie.

started the day so 'fouly' - my mother nagged at me.. from the moment she got up.. and it simply just spoilt my day

upon stepping my first foot in my house.. she started to nag at me again.. *sianz*.. i really dun understand why.. she is pushing herself so unneccessary so hard.. i think i may as well i start to grumble this (or anything regarding my mother) onto here, because when i told my friends.. they will like laugh at me and dun put them into my shoe, and they dun understand how vex it
is going to hear nagging session every day

so much so that whenever i'm going home from outside, the 1st ever thought is "sianz ah, i'm going to hear her nagging (at either me or someone). and i'm really dread to go home"

but never mind!! =) come bad things, good things come too!! and guess what..

i saw the gal that i admired 4 mths ago.. i thought she was attractive... those well-groomed, well-behaved, gracious looking.. she looks so nice.. really nice..

my friends and i were walking around level at taka and come this shop, and there was where i saw her, i was unexpected yet able to react fast enough to erm.. be happy? haha.. and i immediately told my "Deer" abt it..

saw each other.. or i should say i saw her in (Guess) .. and the feeling was very nice to see someone u had kinda of 'special' feeling..

to think that i would rush to the place where i usually saw her, just to see her..
pray to god that it will not rain coz she wouldn't be there
err.. just plain silly me..

is kind of coincidence - there was this song, (You're Beautiful) that actually describe the feeling and even the place.. (but we dun call them subway!) and the lyrics meaning was more or less the same ..

and the shop name that i saw her earlier on and the song name was quite identical - (youarebeautiful) and (You're Beautiful) respectively..

and i'm still excited about seeing her

btw, pls click this entry:
http://wittyweida.blogspot.com/2006/01/nothing-to-write-yesterday.html

went out with my sqd for bbq .. and i started the day by going to alvin's house to buy and then prepare the bbq food..

it was raining all day long in the whole of singapore.. and we were quite disturbed whether it will rain over there or not.. but luckily, or maybe, i was around, and it just stop raining :p haha..

after resting, marinating, prepraring, we all set off to ECP, and on the way sent alvin's sis a ride, picked up seenu.

prepared all the stuff upon reaching there, bbq-ing while eating.. haha.. and the weather was really so cool that we didn't perspire while bbq-ing. =)

went home at around 2+ am.. and thanks to Hardin.. he gave me a ride home on his bike.. and on the way.. it rained.. omg.. is so terrible.. he was driving as much as 120km/h and the raindrops beat me like as if a lot of needles were throwing onto me.. aww.. so painful.. and so cold!

and simply that ends my day..

oh ya.. thanks to everybody who tried to console me down regarding to my posting issues.. =)

nite *yawn*

Today is a new day.. tried to forget about the posting thing... but i can't .. and thought of it when i woke up..

well.. today was really pathetic day.. we reported back to PA as usual and clear up our barrack and left it for good =)

i found one batchmate who got NPCO(which i want to go), wanted to be SA (which was my initial posting) .. and we agreed to swap.. called PNSD to request but was FLATLY rejected it. I dun know how man.. this kind of sucky job.. i really dun want to do...

well.. we all left PA at around 11.30 am..

Was thinking about my allowance and the following will be my basic expenditure:

i've got ONLY PATHETIC S$420

Hp bill : $30 (i've to scrimp to cut to this cost)
Insurance: $100
Bus Concession: $61
Personal Savings: $100
Welfare Membership fee: $11
--> add up to $302

and how much i'm left with it? $118

divide this amount for 30 days.. and that's the money i'm going to spend for the each day - and it really looks bring me to the day when i was in pri sch.. ;(

"thanks ah, SPF"

if anyone of u got job for me to do after office working hours, let me know PLEASEEE..

Good News and Bad news for today....

Good news:

PO...! PO...!! haha.. cool.. after 4 months of training.. and we finally passed out..

reported in PA at around 0830 hrs.. went to barrack and then gone to sleep for a short few mins.. and we changed to half-u and went down for rehearsal and placed our marking on each of the contingents..

*phew.. we thought it would be a long rehearsal, but luckily it was just simply an hour of going-through. so it wasn't so tough...

went back to barrack after the rehearsal,.. and as usual.. i became a pig and fall asleep till 12 pm and we headed to the Mess for our lunch.

Bad News:

This bad news really hit me hard in my heart.. and today dun seem to be my normal day..

1. Posting - I been posted to SA (doing some admin stuff) and this news killed my mood the whole freaking day, even as i'm writing now. I couldn't take it lying down, as if i failed my IPPT, as if i've got a lousy PES status, as if i have injuries on my body that i can't be in the operational side of SPF. i've got reasonable result in my law test, got near-impeccable result for SBT, marksmanship for shooting, and a CPL rank despite all these, i got into SA.. sigh.. my disappointment is beyond words.. i'm speechless and i dun know what to say
2. Rain the whole afternoon.. POP was scheduled to start at 5 pm.. and it was canceled due to the heavy rain.. we'd been training and rehearsaling for the past 3 weeks, just for today and yet.. it rained, how ruthless can the sky be..

Well.. moved to Swimming pool for reception and soon after that.. we all walked-out......

and i'm still brooding over the posting thing and i was utterly disappointed with it..

CHEER UP WEIDA!

what a great day to start my 1st working day in 2006.. walking-in this morning..

waited for my partner at interchange.. and omg.. the bus queue was so so long with students .. anyway, back to the point, took bus @ around 0730 hrs.. and ard this time, i felt my tummy pain... getting more painful as time goes by.. as i was reaching PA, the ache was so severe that i couldn't walk properly, cold sweat broke out, curl my body.. and most importantly, the s**t was already at the a**ehole.. it was pretty difficult to walk with all the factors there..

nevertheless, i still have to, coz there isn't any toilets ard! after i got into PA, i ran in to the Gym and 'bomb' it! phew.. that was heaven, i tell u.. i beared with it for 55 mins.. (best personal record!) but i 'bombed't it within like 15 secs.. it was so unworthwhile!

went back to barrack, as much as i thought the ache was gone, the feeling came, again, i went to toilet to 'bomb'.. not much output :p .. the pain was still there.. took some mins of rest and luckily my friend had charcoal pill.. ate it and yup.. everything's fine from then..

curling in pain..

congratulates to me! i've got promoted to CPL and so is my allowance.. though it isn't a lot..

all right.. tomolo is my POP (Passing Out Parade aka grad) .. hopes nobody in my sqd faints..

walked-out, met up with sun tian to watch and he gave me a Jacket.. thanks =) and after that i met up with jas for a while coz she lent her percious Jay's CDs to me for me to (haha u all know lah).. and thanks for the unselfishness =)

i've gtg.. is late now.. nite!

Read through some horoscope websites and i thought it was good since today is the 1st day of 2006.. and to check out how's my life fare for the next 1 year.. and haha.. i'm not being superstitious.. is just curious about those coz i feel it was rather real and thought of maybe using as a guideline on what is going to happen here and there..

well here it shows on friendster :

Try too hard to meet people and you'll connect with the wrong folks. Slow down. --> haha.. was quite wrong for this

In Detail

If anyone loves holidays, it's you. Your fondness for partying, getting together with friends, family and new people with interesting accents and even more interesting stories is legendary -- as is your ability to keep up when it comes to be just as entertaining. Go out tonight. That's an order! But make sure you've got either a designated driver or a cab driver who's ready to drop everything for that big tip you promised (so what else is new?).

As for http://www.astrology.com :

Career:
When you make a change, it's usually quite a big one. Expect lots of those big changes throughout the year as you follow your restless heart into something new, time and again -- you could be driving a reorg or diving into a new career, but whatever happens will be thoroughly exciting.
One thing that should not trouble you in the least is finance. --> i think i really need some funds to fund my dream job

Love:
If you're single and hunting for a soul mate, step up the pace a notch or two from mid-February to mid-April, especially around the solar eclipse at the end of March.
Be extra attentive again during May and June (when you'll hear a foreign accent you just can't walk past), and after late November.
Needless to say, prepare to make the rounds during those end-of-year celebrations -- and get ready for a great 2007!

well.. we gotta see how true it is going to be..! wish me all the best, my friends!

Just in time to get my feet down by the side of Singapore River and "boom" goes the fireworks.. phew.. the crowd went wild, everybody sprayed foam spray on one another.. made me feel so soapy.. well.. is all right.. once in a year.. :)


Welcome 2006! May all of you enjoy a series of good fortune and luck! Strayed around there for a while.. and came along a pub showing soccer matches.. decided to stay there.. as i long for a live soccer match, furthermore.. it is showing my man utd match.. how can i miss it?! the match was good.. won 4-1..

off we go after the match and we headed to bukit timah to have our supper.. i ordered chocolate milkshake, 2 plain, 1 cheese, 1 egg prata.. and sad enough to say they sent 1 plain, cheese, egg prata.. i'm not being a miser.. but coz i CRAVE for prata

reached home at around 3.30 am.. went online uploading the photos.. etc.. chat.. and KO at 4.40 am.. and that's how i spent my 1st day morning of 2006.