Pissed
the day started well.. went to Rick's house.. erm.. didn't know him at all.. and i thought i knew him and that's why i decided to go when raq asked me.
then to raymond's god mom house and chit-chatted over there.. and we moved on to kaixiang's house.. then to Lek meng's house...
all were fun.. over there
till.. i reached home.. haiz.. another day of quarrel on my mother and father.. like i said in my previous entry, i always dread to go home upon the idea of it, always got fan..why? because they quarreled everyday.
and we lived under her Dictatorship for many many years as well as her Depression. We followed what she told us to do, esp my father. He got really rugged, haggard, shagged from her illness. His wrinkles revealed a lot more than those ppl who weren't under constant stress at his age. I think my father is a really good patient guy, throughout her whole illness, he only got pissed off and started an arquement with my mom only for ONE time. whereas, my mother conflicted with him every little thing everyday.
yes everyone has their own shortcomings and for my father, like me, doesn't know how to express his idea into words/actions/emotion. and also find it hard to understand/know what gals actually wants.
a simple situation
eg: when gal say no to this, but in their heart they want it very much. For me and my dad, i would simply treat as "she dun want".
Today or rather just now, she told my dad that she wanted to go to some temple to pray. and after that, for some reason, she dun want. my dad of course will think the latter. and coz of this, my mother got angry.. -_-" for what?! Reason: she claimed that my dad do not understand her realy thoughts..
she said that my father is not earning a lot for the whole family.. well i think is more to earn for her. she like, spent more than $500+ (& sometimes up till $800) on 4D/Toto and she earned like only $500 a month. and said we all keep spending money. CCB! mathematically, i believe u all know, she will finish her savings in no time!
Sometimes, i do think, is there such thing call LASTING love in this world? my mother knows what calibre my father is made of, and she also plays the part to agree to marry to my father and now, at this stage of their marriage, she blamed him that he is unable to fulfil things, like cars, big house. omg. If u made that decision, u can't blame anyone else. holy shit!
and come on lor.. if u want to go, say go lahz. cb.. everynow and then, wanna make us guess... Female are like f*** lor. They say no at the surface, then in their heart, they want it very much. and when they got into arguments for not understanding to their gal with their guy, they say that guys are not understanding, and said: Guys dun understand gals.. KNN u tell me, u think that's fair for guys or not if we HAPPEN to make wrong GUESS ?
anyway, back to my mother thingy. Can anyone advises me what should i do? or any physiatrist can help? i'm tired of this shit. i'm fed up with the whole thing.
i really desperate now.. i am feeling sick of this place call unHome...
i think u all will think that i am just letting my steam of. NO one knows what i am feeling now, living with a person that u are close with, suffering from depression.
then to raymond's god mom house and chit-chatted over there.. and we moved on to kaixiang's house.. then to Lek meng's house...
all were fun.. over there
till.. i reached home.. haiz.. another day of quarrel on my mother and father.. like i said in my previous entry, i always dread to go home upon the idea of it, always got fan..why? because they quarreled everyday.
and we lived under her Dictatorship for many many years as well as her Depression. We followed what she told us to do, esp my father. He got really rugged, haggard, shagged from her illness. His wrinkles revealed a lot more than those ppl who weren't under constant stress at his age. I think my father is a really good patient guy, throughout her whole illness, he only got pissed off and started an arquement with my mom only for ONE time. whereas, my mother conflicted with him every little thing everyday.
yes everyone has their own shortcomings and for my father, like me, doesn't know how to express his idea into words/actions/emotion. and also find it hard to understand/know what gals actually wants.
a simple situation
eg: when gal say no to this, but in their heart they want it very much. For me and my dad, i would simply treat as "she dun want".
Today or rather just now, she told my dad that she wanted to go to some temple to pray. and after that, for some reason, she dun want. my dad of course will think the latter. and coz of this, my mother got angry.. -_-" for what?! Reason: she claimed that my dad do not understand her realy thoughts..
she said that my father is not earning a lot for the whole family.. well i think is more to earn for her. she like, spent more than $500+ (& sometimes up till $800) on 4D/Toto and she earned like only $500 a month. and said we all keep spending money. CCB! mathematically, i believe u all know, she will finish her savings in no time!
Sometimes, i do think, is there such thing call LASTING love in this world? my mother knows what calibre my father is made of, and she also plays the part to agree to marry to my father and now, at this stage of their marriage, she blamed him that he is unable to fulfil things, like cars, big house. omg. If u made that decision, u can't blame anyone else. holy shit!
and come on lor.. if u want to go, say go lahz. cb.. everynow and then, wanna make us guess... Female are like f*** lor. They say no at the surface, then in their heart, they want it very much. and when they got into arguments for not understanding to their gal with their guy, they say that guys are not understanding, and said: Guys dun understand gals.. KNN u tell me, u think that's fair for guys or not if we HAPPEN to make wrong GUESS ?
anyway, back to my mother thingy. Can anyone advises me what should i do? or any physiatrist can help? i'm tired of this shit. i'm fed up with the whole thing.
i really desperate now.. i am feeling sick of this place call unHome...
i think u all will think that i am just letting my steam of. NO one knows what i am feeling now, living with a person that u are close with, suffering from depression.
posted by James Bob at 1:05 am
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