my NS life is screwed up.. my family is screwed up.. ppl i treat them 'close' is f*** up..
well.. what to do.. my life is such a fuck up

MH said that i'm quite disturbed recently.. i think is somewhat true ba..

b4 i start anything, i would sincerely like to thanks to ppl who read my blog.. being updated of what i am going to do.

let's talk about my NS... i hoped to go to Army to serve my NS.. reason? coz i wanted to come in contact with rifle, undergo jungle training, etc.. those stuff Recruits went through for their BMT.. yes.. it is very tiring, i do understand. but the love can be replaced all those toughness of the trainings. but it was never meant to be.... coz i was posted to SPF for my NS...

Come SPF... there are several postings available for NS guy to go. there are 2 postings i like to go very much.. MRT and NPC.. Those 2 were in my list when we were told to choose our posting... like i posted in my last entry.. i've got everything they want to enter the posting (NPC).. but it was never meant to be.. alas i'm posted to SA in PA. sigh

i wanted to learn things in NS.. at least the operational side.. why? do u think we can touch those technical stuff like revolver, rifle, etc.. so easily? and i thought those were the best chance to learn and came in contact with them. Some of my friends asked me why dun i sign on.. well.. coz i dun want to get tied down.. all i want is to learn 1 or 2 things and go off.. that's why.. now.. no more.. in conclusion.. my NS life is really screwed up for the next 1 1/2 years.. so.. friends of mine.. dun mention about my NS life.. coz i dun wish to be reminded of what i do. but of course.. a kind-hearted person like me.. wouldn't give u a nasty face if u did mention.. =)

think this entry is pretty long.. i think i better talk about my family stuff next time.. and then follow up by the .. <-- this gonna be the highlight..

all right.. that's all.. take good care everyone.. weather is cold.. dun get caught with flu..